Bila Mak jemah menulis..

Mak jemah x suka nk menulis bila tgh EMO2 ni.. tp kadang2 mood nk menulis dtg waktu2 cenggini. Sesuei ke x.. ada aku kesah.. janji aku bole mereleasekan kata hati yg duduk diam2.. mcm singa tgh kelaparan.. tunggu time nak NGAP ja nih..

Bila mak jemah kata.. dia dok diam2.. maksudnya mood nk bertenang.. tp kalo org x abis2 dok poking dgn kata2 perli.. haihh.. ni bakal berTENDANG jadinya.. muahahaha.. ni gelak jahat nk bertukar jadi hulk..

Mak jemah pelik sungguh perangai org ni.. dah buat salah.. x mo terima salah.. last2 dok pretend jadi MANGSA KEADAAN.. waah wahh.. ckit2 xpa laa jugak.. sudah ku ignore berkali-kali.. sudah ku beralih membawa diri.. x abis2 dok perli2.. haihhh.. mula2 ckit2 bole la nk rasa sympathy. . Lama2.. THIS IS ANNOYING..!!

Dun Over Acting.. reason sudah diberi.. masa sudah dibagi.. Dun Act That U Done Nothing.. u started this.. YOU are the reason Y..! Yes YOU my dear.. stop pretending to be the VICTIM.. jgn dok ulang *aku x tau apa salah aku*..  dah diterangkan dgn jelas how u hurt me.. kalo dah set *bukan besaq sgt ur mistake*.. then u'll never admit n accept it. With common sense.. kalo U rasa x salah.. then Y from the beginning U try to hide from me.. Because U do knew.. its gonna pissed me.. but wat U do not know it really HURT me.. when the person I trust and will share almost everything do not respect my feelings and keep repeating and repeating!!! This is how I feel BROKEN TRUST... goshh.. betrayal to be exact!

Mak jemah x minta disanjung.. but I respect those who respect me.. mak jemah rasa.. dah cukup mak jemah cuba menjaga hati. Contohnya mak jemah kalo tau si polan pandai menjahit.. takkan ku tanya polan2 lain utk jahitkan buat mak jemah. Biar jahitan x kemas mana.. ada lg polan lain yg bole menjahit dgn baik.. xder maknanya mak jemah tanyakan yg lain.. sbbnya mak jemah yakin akan buat si polan terasa.. di mulut mungkin kata TAK.. tapi kalo terkena mesti akan TERTANYA-TANYA.. mak jemah akan cuba elak kan situasi TERASA sesimple situasi di atas.

Mak jemah x suka FAKERS and betrayal. . I really hate them.. but mak jemah takkan buat cubaan menghasut dun like this polan because of I dun like.. that is childish.. semua org bole berpk and bole memberi pendapat.. its people's rite and I respect that.. but kalo U pilih berbaik dgn org lain.. dgn caranya menyakitkan hati mak jemah.. wow.. BRAVO to you..

Cukup.. cukup sudah.. nk ulang nyanyi lg.. cukup.. cukup sudah.. poking2 me with ur sharing and posting.. its getting annoying and annoying.. haa.. kelas kan nyanyi BM & BI skali gus.. muahahaha.. janji mesej di cni.. xpayah la dok kata xkan cita kat org that we have prob.. kalo dah terang buat pengakuan di alam siber.. org dok ceruk kampung pun reti aih guna Internet.. tambah dok posting2.. sharing2.. nak buat apa sebenarnya.. xpaham mak jemah..

Kalo benar bagai dirasa.. U x rasa salah besar sebenarnya.. Y until today u never ask me.. What exactly.? How do I feel..? And Y I walk away.? And this is how cubaan utk menjernihkan yg keruh menjadi lebih keruh.. Yea.. U dah cukup menCOBA..!

Mak jemah mmg selfish.. Especially to those yg sengaja HURT me.. Org buat salah dekat mak jemah takkan mak jemah nk nyanyi lagu Jamal Abdillah.. Aku maafkan Kamu.. Gila kaa.. Biar pun dah say sorry but never mean it.. Mak jemah nk react mcmana.. Habaq mai sat.. Dah sori pun buat jugak.. Baik mak jemah angkat kaki.. Bukan nk tendang org.. Tp.. Mak jemah ni beralah cara mak jemah sendiri.

Mak jemah takkan paksa org lain jaga hati mak jemah kalo dia x bole.. X mo.. X suka ataupun segala
X yg lain. Dun take Me for granted.. I'm not like others.. I might Turn AND walk away.. Mak jemah
lebih suka pilih duduk jauh dari sakit hati.. Mak jemah juga pilih utk remain silence until today afternoon.. Malam ni x include sbb dah start menulis.. U nk cara siber.. I'll pay u cash.. bukan soal balas dendam.. tp mak jemah fedup bila start scene jadi *Mangsa Keadaan*

Tho mak jemah yg sebenarnya Merasa dicni.. But i never forget.. Those moments that we had together.. It were priceless.. And mak jemah takkan kata I Used U or U Used Me during that moment.. Because We were there for Each other.. Mak jemah takkan kata U only there when U need me.. I knew U always there.. It Just Over for me.. The day I loss my TRUST on U.. And TRUST is not something U can simply fixed and Ready to use.. Have U ever heard.. "TRUST need to be EARNed"..

I never declare war.. I just ignore.. I never explain.. I just remain silence.. I never try to HURT others.. I Just want Peace.. avoid heartache.. Eventho.. I have to walk away.. Mak jemah xpandai and takkan berlakon Nothing happened sedangkan hati sakit.. I only can Forgive but really Hard to Forget.. I do not do FAKE thing. I'm Just being ME..

Those yg x berkaitan.. do not judge me.. we are not wearing the same shoes.. I degil.. hati I keras.. and I wont let people simply stab n hurt me..

I may not perfect.. I dun have big heart.. may not kind.. but I've try to give u the quality I have.. friendship does not come merely tru finding the rite fren.. but also tru being the right one!