Soo Not Me..!

Hari ni bermula dgn agak kelam kabut.. sbb nya awal2 pagi lagi dah mengalami gangguan elektrik.. urghhh.. apsal diorang ni x bagi early notice.? boleh laa I buat preparation.. geram betul laa.

Hari ni jugak, ada kenduri di rumah Makcik Dah (adik my MIL).. sempena akikah cucu baru.. Muhammad Syakir, anak Kak Lin & Emy. So my MIL & FIL ke sana dulu utk tolong2.. tinggal la I ber2 dgn my lil' son. Memandangkan xder saper di rumah.. kena laa layan gak si kecik ni bermain... or else dia akan nangis sbb feel alone. I pulak asyik dok pk baju apa nk pakai pegi kenduri and terus ke kerja.. tension.. tension.. arghhhhh.. mcmana nk iron ni...???

Buka wardrobe.. belek membelek.. makin tension rasa.. almost all baju kena iron. I ni alergic ckit kalo nampak crumple.. appearance tu penting beb.! haihhh.. memandangkan hari ni hari Jumaat.. normally I akan pakai baju/busana melayu/muslimah.. but today.. nak tahu I end up pakai apa ke ofis..? tadaaaaa... jeans + t-shirt muslimah (sopan jugak tho a bit leisure).. haihhhh.. this is Sooo Not Me!! wat to do..? no choice.. huhu

Ok laa daripada x berbaju.. nasib baik laa jugak I ni jenis yg pakai apa pun still sedap mata memandang (sila jgn muntah).. ngeh ngeh.. so belasah jer laa.. yg penting maintain gud quality n personality!! Ini semua hasil pembelajaran subject grooming & personality dev. during my study. x sia2 tau..! thx to my lecturer..!

**no picas for today.. i xder mood nk bergambar.. hoho

Happy Besday Merah!

Hampir I terlupa.. on 12th July (Sunday), family kitorang ada buat small party for our lil' cutie Merah. Saidatul Ummairah (Merah) ni anak bongsu my 2nd SIL. So without proper preparation, we just managed to organized just a small party between our family. Merah turned to 5years old on that day.. but sorry Acu x sempat nak beli prezie lagi.. nanti kasi yg spesel ckit naa..

Saidatul Ummairah & Ammar Mokhtar .. get ready for the excitement
Ni masa birthday gal nak blow de candle.. lil' Darwisy kena pegang sbb dia yg nk blow.. haihh

Merah dpt prezie from Cik Jan.. Darwisy still nangis kata Nakkkk... for the cake

My SIL tgh potong cake.. semua org pakat pujuk Darwisy.. kasi tenang ckit

Tgk laa Xpressi budak kecik ni bila dapat cake.. abis comot dibuatnya..sabar jer laa

**x sabar nk tgu Darwisy turn 2 this coming November..

Demam Manja

Last nite, bila I sampai jer di rumah (balik dari keja).. I dgr my lil' prince nangis. Rupanya dia terjaga and was not feeling well.. badan panas rasa nk demam. Risau jugak laa mulanya.. my hubby pun not around, tapi alhamdulillah.. semuanya ok.

I called it 'Demam Manja'.. tho rasa nak demam.. Darwisy still lagi nak main. Bayangkan until 2.00am he still ajak I main dgn teddy bear (3 ekor) keluar masuk bilik. I pun dlm keadaan letih dan mengantuk layan laa jugak si kecik ni. Lagipun demam ni x laa seteruk waktu my hubby ada. Darwisy akan merap melampau laa dat time.

Lebih kurang 2.30am baru laa Darwisy tertdo.. agak nya dah letih sgt kot. Tapi dalam tdo pun still dia akan terjaga few times then nangis. kesian and sedih I tgk.. So, I pun x boleh nak tdo nyenyak takut2 dia terjaga.. sambil2 tu I jelum air asam jawa sbb nk kurangkan panas badan.

Somehow I rasa.. he maybe missing his Abi.. sbb tu I usahakan jugak hiburkan hati dia. Tho he cannot express his feeling.. but deep inside I knew.. we're sharing the same feeling towards our most beloved person.

Pagi tadi bila bangun.. Darwisy yg tegur I.. "Mi" (referring to Umi) sambil tersenyum. he's getting well. Lega & happy sgt I tgk my lil' prince ni senyum. Tapi manja tu semakin melebih laa.. nak suh I pay attention la tu.. hmm.. anything for u my dear..!

Rindu datang lagi

Baru jer hantar my hubby di stesen bas Express Sg Petani at 8.00pm tadi.. sekarang.. dah mula rasa rinduuuu.... Tapi tadi waktu menghantar, my MIL ikut sekali sbb nak tolong pegang Darwisy. Kesian la pulak kalo x nak bawak si kecik ni kan.. nanti dia pun rindu dgn Abi.. huhuhu.. So I pun kena maintain EMO & Cun.. ye laa.. xnak my hubby risau sama.

My hubby tu nampak jer Cool.. tapi kadang2 dia yg sensitip lebih.. hehe.. Tadi masa nk naik bas pun.. my hubby patah balik sekejab sbb nak give hug n kisses dekat Darwisy sekali lagi.. Memandangkan my MIL ada.. I x dapat laa.. huhu.. x aci betui..!!

Anyway.. I maybe rasa semakin boleh adapt dgn current situation.. But I must admit.. I got to do something.. there shud be better way for us.. InsyaAllah ada laa jalan nanti.. moga2 dimakbulkan.. and I'm really looking forward toward this.. : )

Another 5 and 1/2 day to go.. hmmmm

Hari Darwisy bergumbira

Pagi semalam adik I dtg ke rumah, sbbnya nk suruh I bawak balik Darwisy ke rumah parents I dgn kadar segera.. mentang2 la last week diorang semua jalan2 sampai ke Pahang (kami xleh ikut).. so rindu melebih-lebih laa dekat si kecik ni.

Memangdangkan I belum lagi Terasa nak beli Car Seat for my lil' prince, so menyukarkan diri sendiri utk bergerak ke mana saja semenjak my hubby tinggal berjauhan... huhu. Kalo nak suruh tinggalkan anak I dekat my MIL (bukan baby sitter).. x sampai hati la pulak. Lagipun I akan rasa bersalah tahap melampau dan rasa x bertanggungjawab..! Ye laa.. I nak keluar bersuka ria.. then terpaksa susahkan org lain lak tuk jaga anak I.. apa kes kan..?? So.. dari rasa yg bukan2.. baik I avoid from those kind of irresponsible action n feeling.

So tugas adik I ni, kena pegang Darwisy laa sementara I drive kereta. Bukan x nak beli Car Seat.. tapi dulu I rasa not necessary sbb I prefer to hold Darwisy myself.. In fact kalo nak ke mana2 pun mesti ber 3 with my hubby. Tapi memandangkan situasi sekarang yg agak berlainan.. I think I shud re-consider the idea to buy it again... hmm.. nanti laa I pk kan and rujuk my dear hubby 1st. Bukan aper.. takut nanti dah beli.. tapi x guna.. buat perhiasan jer..

Kat umah my parents, seperti biasa tumpuan akan diberikan pada my lil' prince ni.. maklum laa cucu sulung (cucu lain belum ada lagi). Si kecik ni apa lagi.. bukan main laa dia. Mak tok ngan tok ayah beli macam2 kat dia as souvenir.. toys, baju, seluar, kasut.. nasib baik Umi pun dapat gak sehelai tudung CT (tapi kena bayar balik.. x aci betui..!).. untung laa dia.. x ikut jalan pun dpt mcm2.. save laa duit Umi.. ngeh ngeh.

Lepas penat bermain.. I suap laa Darwisy makan nasi + fishball + siput lala.. lepas tu boleh laa tdo.. yg lawak nyaa.. si Darwisy dgn Paksu (adik I paling kecik).. tdo mcm baru lepas kena tembak jaa.. hehe.. agaknya penat main kot.

Tgk ni.. paksu n anak mcm lebih kurang jaa sama besar (2-2 org dok pakai pampers lagi). Padahal Paksu dah 4 tahun this year.

Lepas kenyang.. I pun tertdo sebelah Darwisy.. smpai laa my hubby call.. menghilangkan segala mimpi indah yg baru nk start.. iskkk.. I ingatkan my hubby balik dgn kawan dia yg tinggal di Penaga tu.. tapi dia balik dgn Abg Hassan ja naik bas. So dia mintak la I datang ambik di jeti.. aiyakk.. dah laa tgh mamai.. my hubby suh bawak keta lak.. xpatut tuii laa.. Then I pun apa lagi.. segera laa buat muka kesian suruh my father yg tolong bawak kan kereta.

Bila I bangun.. Darwisy yg di sebelah pun.. dgn segera laa bangun takut Umi tinggai.. iskk iskk.. agaknya dia tahu kot.. Abi was on de way home.. dia pun cam Umi gak.. excited nk jumpa Abi. :)

Darwisy terus bergaya dgn kasut baru.. gift from Mak tok
Pistol di tangan .. ada gaya cam CID x..

Misi mencari Abi.. agak2 ada kat bawak keta x..?

Bersiap sedia utk bergerak sekarang..!

Jumpa jer my hubby di Jeti.. Darwisy tiba2 buat perak (bukan negeri perak.. tapi aksi pelik seperti baru pertama kali bertemu). Takkan my hubby nampak makin hitam kot.. memandangkan terpaksa tinggal dan berulang alik di kawasan berdekatan dgn laut. Rupa2nya.. Darwisy malu dgn Abg Hassan.. sbb x pernah lagi jumpa.. iskk iskk anak Umi ni.. pemalu rupanya.. hehe

Sampai di rumah.. my hubby drop us 1st.. dia terus keluar nak hantar Abg Hassan ke rumah laa.. x jauh pun.. taman sebelah jer.. lepas tu plan nak gunting rambut di De Brothers.. so kami pun x bother nak ikut.. malas nak menunggu.

Asalnya.. kami planned nak ke Karnival Sua Rasa di Laguna Merbok tu.. tapi dah kena ambik my hubby.. so all plan changed laa.. lepak2 jab di rumah.. then kami adik beradik keluar ke Padang Permainan yg berdekatan.. saja nak bawak Darwisy main2.

Darwisy dgn MakChaq (adik I bawak kami ke padang)

Bukan main excited Darwisy naik buaian.. buai laju2

Mula2 takut nak naik slide.. lepas try jer sekali.. terus mintak berulang kali.. haihhh

Kat padang ni ada ikan paus... cute kan

Bila bawak jer Darwisy dkt fish ni.. terus pegang nak naik/panjat

Pemandangan daripada atas.. Darwisy tgh mengagak ukuran ketinggian.. sakit x kalo jatuh..?

Jom turun.. jom turun.. maybe gayat kot..

Last but not least.. kena laa bergumbira dgn Umi jugak..

Satu hari jugak laa Darwisy dapat menghabiskan masa dgn my family.. My mom commented.. "ni kalo Darwisy balik.. sunyi balik laa rumah.." sedih laa pulak.. huhu.. tapi bukan jauh pun.. SP to KK jaa.. hehe.. next week kami balik lagi yeaa..

Problem Solving - Module 2

Yesterday, I'd attended the 2nd Module of Problem Solving Training. The topics were getting more complicated since there were so many charts involved. Luckily the speed was better than the previous training (1st module).. so we managed to control and reduced our screen saver mode.

Beginning of the training, each group dah get ready nak present our homework/project/problem statement presentation. Yoong (my grupmate) jadi presenter for that day...even x der competition aper pun, I think we did well in presenting our Project/Problem issue. Means we absorbed last week punya learning and apply them into our work.. tho byk aksi2 menguap n screen saver mode during the training.. ngeh ngeh

Settled the topic, I thought for the final presentation later i'll get ready to be the next presenter laa.. but we still got small exercise to be presented after lunch.. urghhhh.. My turn la pulak.! How I Hate 'Public Speaking'. I kan pemalu.. tho i like to captured people's attention a lot.. ngeh ngeh.

Utk menghilangkan rasa nervous .. I buat iklan Colgate dulu yer.. Smile..!!

Ni masa kena present..

x puas ati ngan trainer sbb dia bagi salah info... mula2 kata nak 'Process Flow' to show from where the problem has been detected. Then bila present dia dok question What & How is your 'Plan Chart'. Isskk.. time kami reconfirm dia nak aper.. x cakap camtu pun.. Nanti I nak bagi less point dalam trainer evaluation form baru tau..!

Patutnya kami completed the training by 3pm.. sbb Mages dah arranged besday party for our Director, Mr. Adib. Ingat kan sempat laa nak joint.. tapi si trainer ni ajak recap la apa laa.. iskk.. last2 dgr org nyanyi besday song kat luar.. missing us trapped in the room waiting for the trainer to release us.. aiyakkk.. x sempat laa nk tgk muka tergezuttt Adib tu.. iskk iskkkKak Nur, Maria (mother to be for the 2nd time), Fahrul and Kak Nonnie

Semua org dah 'Q' in line nak ambil makanan yg disediakan

Menu for the party.. Mee goreng, sandwich telur yg masin, kue sago & kek from Secret Recepi + Nescafe

Seperti biasa kami2 yg terlibat dlm aktiviti menambah ilmu a.k.a training ni akan diberi makanan PERCUMA.. saya ulang.. PERCUMA.. hehe. From Breakfast, Lunch to Tea time semuanya provided. Menunya ok2 laa.. tapi rasanya tetap sedap.. sampai ada laa kawan2 kami yg menambah for 2nd round punya intake. So kesimpulannya.. selain dpat menambah ilmu di dada.. dapat jugak menambah lemak2 yg sedia ada pada kami2 semua.. ngeh ngeh.

Oh yea.. training ni x abis lagi tau..! Sbb ada final session for reviewing our Project/Problem issue. Maknanya kami bukan balik dgn tgn kosong/ melenggang kangkung.. tapi balik dgn homework yg kena siap before 25th Aug 09. Rasa cam lama kan.. alaaa.. x lama pun.. iskk iskk

The Climb - Miley Cyrus

Love this song.. so inspiring..!! I nak share the lyrics with all my frens.. Setinggi mana pun cita2.. walau ada anasir2 jahat mengganggu.. halangan dan sekatan yg xpernah putus.. kita perlu teruskan perjuangan.. Never Give Up!!

I can almost see it

That dream I’m dreaming but

There’s a voice inside my head sayin,

You’ll never reach it,

Every step I’m taking,

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking but I

Got to keep trying

Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain

I’m always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,

Ain’t about how fast I get there,

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side

It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,

The chances I’m taking

Sometimes they might knock me down but

No I’m not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I’m going to remember most yeah

Just got to keep going

And I

I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on,

cause

There’s always going to be another mountain

I’m always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,

Ain’t about how fast I get there,

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side

It’s the climb

There’s always going to be another mountain

I’m always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Somebody's you're going to have to lose,

Ain’t about how fast I get there,

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side

It’s the climb

Keep on moving

Keep climbing

Keep the faith baby

It’s all about

It’s all about

The climb

Keep the faith

Keep your faith

Whoaaa Oh waoooh

A.T.T.I.T.U.D.E

Harini I nk menulis tentang A.T.T.I.T.U.D.E.. a story from a fren. Bukan nak mengaku diri ni baik sangattt.. but this is a story to share.. yg baik jadikan pedoman.. yg buruk tu.. jadi kan sempadan dalam erti kata lain sendiri mo ingat laaa..

Adakala kita terpaksa berurusan dgn org2 yg suka mencari kesalahan org lain. Mmg betul as a human yg serba x perferto ni.. kita x boleh memuaskan hati semua orang.. adakala jugak boleh membuat kesilapan. Tapi bila dah silap tu..pandai2 laa admit and try to resolve the prob/issue + MINTA MAAF. Kalo malu sgt nk admit or say sorry.. just cut it short with NOTED. Alaaa.. mcm barang bila dipinjam then bagi rosak bila dipulangkan (selepas berabad dalam simpanan sampai tuan punya diri kena mintak) sila laa bgtau dan minta maaf jgn dok DIAM jer..karang tuan punya diri x HALAL kan saper yg susah..

Oopss ter EMO pulak.. berbalik pada cita my fren ni, ada org yg bila dah tersilap tu .. cuba cari lak kesalahan org lain bagi menutup kesalahan sendiri.. siap balik karang 2 hari plak tu nk susun ayat.. wah wah.. ada jugak laa org berhati busuk sebegini. I pity laa org yg xdak sense ni.. patut laa slalu failed to build a gud relationship.. kalo dok rasa bagus jer.. sampai bila pun x kan berubah laa attitude buruk tu.. Minta2 laa I dan kawan2 yg baik hati dijauhkan dari org2 sebegini..biarkan jer org2 sebegini hidup dalam dunia sendiri.


**agaknya sbb x byk kawan yg sanggup tegur kot.. ataupun diri sendiri terasa terlalu BAGUS utk berubah..! renung2 kan

Penawar jiwa

Waktu2 stress begini I perlukan ubat penenang berDos tinggi.. tapi bila teringat dia jer terubat segala duka lara.. jom tgk mcm2 Xpresi Darwisy.

Eh.. Eh..

mmm.. masam..geli..

eiiyahhhh.. bangun tdo..nk mengeliat ckit
nyumm..nyumm..dap nyaaanenen time..kita minum dulu!!

Manja nyaa..

alamak.. malu laa

excited..excited..

huhu.. sob sob

uwaaaaaa...nk nangis ni..

opocot..tergezutt..

Cari pasal dgn Umi saya ka..?? Mo kena blasah.. haiyakkkk!!!

I'm pissed..!!

Pissed Off… somebody made me MAD today..!! Susah nk explain pada org yg dah TUA tapi x matang2.. harap experience kerja jaa lamaa.. tapi x reti act professionally.. Now I’m very pissed off.. Awak tu mmg some kind of attitude prob + PHD.. tp x sedaq2.. no wonder laa ramai yg x suka..!! MORON.. blom lagi I ungkit kes pinjam meminjam ni yg x settle2.. karang panjang lak ceta.. Anyway.. sapa2 yg tau/kenal this person.. I dun have to clarify further.. you knew well..!!

Farewell

Sungguh x percaya setelah 6 tahun memerah keringat di salah sebuah factory di SP, akhirnya my hubby terpaksa melangkah pergi. Semuanya gara2 mengejar sebuah masa depan dan kehidupan yg lebih cerah buat isteri dan anak terchenta.. sapa lagi kalo bukan ME.. hehe.

To cut the story short.. di bawah ada picas taken from farewell ceremony held on last Thursday.

Venue : Bali-Bali Restaurant.. I pun x pernah try lagi hehe
Para jemputan yg menunggu.. sampai awal sebelum waktu

Semuanya berada di dlm kedudukan masing2.. bersedia utk memenuhkan perut..

Makanan sudah pun terhidang.. dimulakan dgn Doa.. Aminnn..

Sesi melantak.. makan puas2 yer.. lauk pauk kampung nmpak menyelerakan..nyum nyum

Ini pula kejadian pada keesokkan harinya.. Last day in the factory.. my hubby memberi sepatah dua kata memandangkan saat2 akhir di situ bersama kawan2

Antara kawan2 ofis yg hadir.. semuanya kawan I jugak

Part sedih bila mula bersalaman bermaaf2 an.. mcm raya laa pulak.. sob sob

De climax mesti laa waktu nk ucap selamat tinggal dekat BOSS.. halalkan makan minum dan jugak mana2 pending2 kerja tu yer..

Yang ni yg I suka.. nak berenti pun dpt byk hadiah.. nasib baik x dpt bunga.. mauu I gelak 1 hari dekat my hubby.. oOpss

Walaupun kawan2 semua sedih.. tapi hati I lagi laaaaaaaa merana.. sob sob..

tapi I kuatkan jugak.. demi masa depan bersama.. chaiyokk!!

Nampak gaya I pun x lama lagi mengikut langkah yg sama.. huhu

New life..?? hmmm

Empty.. that is how i feel rite now.. a part of me is missing! This is the Decision we made.. hope to start this new journey with full of love, hope, good fortune and happiness. Tho need a lot of sacrifies and patient.. this is a start of our new life..

We gonna miss you a lot and lot lot lot lot.. my dear B.!

Rambutan oh! Rambutan

Seperti tahun2 sebelumnya, pokok2 rambutan di rumah I amat laa galak berbuah. Seronok tgk kaler2 rambutan waktu ni. Tambah lak mcm2 jenis rambutan yg ditanam di rumah I, hasil kerja keras my FIL. Buat kawan2 yg nak merasa kemanisan/kelazatan/keenakkan buah2 rambutan ni boleh laa ke rumah I bila2 masa yer..

Ni pokok jenis 'Anak Sekolah' yg sedap sekali isinya.
Ni pulak jenis 'Jarum Emas'

Ni ada beberapa jenis pokok rambutan yg tumbuh rimbun di keliling rumah.

Ini laa pokok rambutan jenis 'Gading' yg warnanya kuning, jarang dijumpai di luar sana.

Pic rambutan ni diambil mgu lepas.. My both SIL yg bawak semua, utk dikendurikan di ofis and sekolah diorang. Macam utk dijual kan rambutan tu.. hehe

Darwisy kata nak ambik satu ikat bagi kat Umie.. sian anak Umi.. pulun laa bawak rambutan berat tu dgn tangan sebelah (sbb xnak letak bantal busuk n kunci keta).

Ofismate I pun dah pakat2 merasa keenakkan rambutan jenis 'Anak Sekolah' yg I bawak dari rumah. I guarantee sedap rasanya..

: )